Thursday, April 8, 2010

the melody in a scream.

"Sometimes I cuss in my conversations with God.
When I’m at the end of it all…

And you know what?
I think that He hears a melody in those screams that He never hears on a Sunday morning.
The melody of authenticity in pain is so much better than an inauthentic melody of praise on a Sunday morning.

HE will comfort you.
And HE will sing with you.
So don’t be scared to sing in your screams, ragamuffins.
Your haunting melody is music to His ears."

taken from [carlos whittaker]

if there was ever a season of life where this resonated with me,
it's this current season of life.
this haunting melody inside of me screams so loud i wonder how He hears me.
i wear myself out, i wear josh's a miracle, a true miracle i don't wear Him out.

in the midst of some shitty circumstances, a gentle Voice comes and reminds me that giving up isn't the easier option...but pressing on and believing in things to come will sustain my heart in a way that giving up and forgetting never could. here's to trusting that these crazy days are but a season.


  1. I wish we could sit down for coffee...and chat for hours.

  2. i'm in starbucks reading your post and i wish you were here : )it seems everyone has that idea. i love your honesty. i love your heart. it's a wonder i don't fly all the way to you just to say hello. one day.